Poems: 040921 - September 4th, 2021

310821A
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Scant remains 
pertaining to anyone 
hints impossible 
once it seemed 
entirely the possible.

The heart 
isn't in it 
making it clockwork
hated obsessions 
with tick tock time. 

One or the other
species of betrayals
made all too clear 
far too late 
to step aside. 

Get the low down
run down 
been run over 
and declared guilty 
for have a feeling. 

Anything can 
and usually does
end at gone
in a heartbeat 
never coming back. 

What stuck to you
isn't what you want
but can't get any 
to come off 
from what goes on. 

Been thrown 
down into it 
where you can't 
really get out 
from being under. 

Ground level 
to falling fast 
past the cut off 
lines of attrition
then dream on. 

False circulations 
fake connections 
everything consumed 
everything denied
made lonelier. 

Ante up social 
brought no wins 
and miss the gone 
left not a hope
for what wasn't. 

Been that way 
best of worse
worst of best 
there is a down
but no real up. 

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310821B
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Someone's spice box 
turns out common
chemistry experiments 
in the grunge 
back roomer 
districts long sketch
knowing expired token 
redemptions of nothing.

Scorched earth
grit screams
neural brakes grip
monkey minds
drag limbs 
scrape the gone off
from tied shine 
rust rails.

No one travels 
this way anymore 
piled black bags 
street side luggage
says leaving 
for some other 
similar condition 
of don't know. 

Places imagined 
might have been 
fate's parallel lines 
long torn down  
folded up reasons
turned full spreads 
forever crowd 
of the not living. 

Death rattle 
loose machines 
misery serenades
lost causes 
luckless gravel 
throat stones 
drop scatter  
the once rock solid.  

A rock candy
shatter total 
break up 
sticky lick it
sugar drop crack 
black booted 
metal stud
and chain gang. 

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010921A
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It all came 
the saddest way
space kept 
as near to sacred 
as emptiness 
being defiled 
with ordinary 
sorted objections.

Objects arranged
to be broken 
target hits 
scored between 
caved in eyes
kills thought
in an old war 
of again, again. 

No one asked
about wishes
reasoned sway
grants of any
actual being 
permitted vicinity
at any gate
never opens. 

Fences mended 
topped countless 
razor wire cuts
blink eyes swarm
shock watch
the new lands
defining boundaries
and exiles.

Difficult imagine
we once dreamt 
reading about
to each other 
before dreaming 
became silenced 
no longer listed
permitted subjects. 

Any cat alley 
gets the tongue 
scraps of chorus 
scarred up 
freedom cuts
tooth and claw 
to every saying
gone misunderstood. 
 
Cryptic warnings
hit and run 
scrawled hasty
stray walls
unheeded loner
crash came long
down sky organ
stretched pipes. 

Plays heaven 
hidden speakers 
tell tale secret 
catchy billboards 
paste up tuned
enlightenment
trying to tell you
which no way. 

Wind scalds 
expanded void 
littered blank
looking attitudes 
trading nothings 
with wired 
giving thanks 
for suggestion. 

Public outbursts
feign conscious 
chatter blocked 
corner sits 
looking pass time 
not to remember
any moment 
getting hit. 

Take the doughnut 
holes and go 
doing whatever 
was intended
with the emptiness 
won't hold in
anything filling. 

Trying to avoid
old faces 
wanting talk
out of any
get away 
plans and any 
you could want  
things happening. 

Spend what's left
and call it 
“a lifetime”
gambling small 
timed out stakes  
never winning
and never know 
the right games. 

Seemed more
than love within
and hate outside 
boils black burst
mind brim boils
topped soup
burner glow 
sounds hot lies.  

That was illusion
this is today 
being no different
as to parts 
ending crushed 
at take away
regions of empty
threatens it all. 

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030921A
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Was looking for a truce 
a final armistice 
a negotiated deal 
but it is never that way
and the war goes on.

My outpost here 
past every lands end
a failing watch tower
of nothing but solitaire
among the amusements. 

Did not want to fight you
and wanted to get out 
from under common lies
leaving ordinary cheats 
prodding deceptions.

Have no more idea 
what interests you 
knowing nothing 
that interests me 
ever interests you. 

Tried a bit of everything
then tried a little more 
it does not matter
cause you put blame
on any such source. 

If it was someone else
it might have been 
seen as something 
somewhat and interesting 
somewhat and beautiful. 

Whatever it is 
I know you won't 
ever really enjoy it 
once you know
it comes from me. 

Belief is a crock 
some still fall into
seeking reward points 
hoping for prizes 
at secret prize draws. 

Once had dreams 
but none of them mine
due to requirements 
for having someone
from the other side. 

Nothing comes through
those downed lines 
the operator  
a skeleton figure
turns key to no door. 

It turns numb 
lost touch 
worn out feelings 
that must be kept 
safe to yourself. 

The only ones 
say anything 
always the same
no need to hear from
being their target. 

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030921B
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Gone to those places
seemed calling 
and on the return 
counted up the loss. 

I feel I lost you 
without a chance
to really know who
and what you are. 

Completely bored 
with whatever it was 
I had conjured up 
in any of my mirrors. 

It was not my choice
to exist that way 
giving the pain of it
as offerings of thanks. 

An ugly magic
at its very best 
made into a wall 
I could never smash. 

Getting through 
the somehow category
deemed fit for use
but nothing else. 

They have shattered
anything I wanted to be 
into reflecting shards
having no real meaning. 

Edges of everything 
always razor sharp 
so all that it becomes
is the cuts they make. 

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030921C
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Someone keeps saying
savings account 
is too small, too small 
and it is never enough 
to really add up 
to ever being saved. 

You won't be saved 
they keep threatening 
debasing cash out values
to what you can get
after made worthless
in today's markets.

You are still too little
to buy your way in 
to buy your way out 
but you will never grow
having been stunted
in development. 

Development office
of technological change
slowly gnaws away 
everything you had 
accumulated within you. 

The formula changed
to something toxic 
until you choked on it 
starved to unable
any further continuity 
with the program.

It all costs money 
that you never had 
and every time 
they always hurt you 
while you struggled 
with costs gone up. 

Change your plans 
to something different
but you were used up 
to every last option 
you ever thought 
you were able to suffer. 

Happiness is a dream
that you wait for 
getting scheduled
to your personal network
so you can all watch 
what you are missing. 

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030921D
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Nothing to show
and nothing to tell. 

Keep it in a vault
buried in yourself. 

Put it all down 
out of a cruel light. 

More private reasons
for a secret cry. 

You won't really hear 
anything from me. 

You never listened 
to anything I said. 

The dead silence 
is deafening me. 

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030921E
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You could fall for someone
stroking your famished ego
being a make believe lover

You could believe that lover
being the one that is different
if that really satisfies you.

You could find that one person 
who does not really matter
from among everyone else. 

Believing that is your prize
catch award for effort
though it isn't anything. 

You will surely hate me 
for not ever falling 
for the same old trick. 

I know it isn't really love 
and you cannot call it service 
but only another raw deal. 

I made something for you
then I gave it to you 
but you never even looked.

You were anyone 
and you were no one to me
but I made it very special. 

Now it isn't anyone special
who is hurting me that much
but it is only the many. 

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