Poems: 100620 - June 10th, 2020

120520A
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Baggage train
strewn wreck=20
sixty six year span
forty three freight=20
one dozen passenger
a few mail cars
and the money
bags looted.=20

Signals crossed
barrelled down=20
a wrong track=20
crashing tomorrow=20
left field scattered=20
past the derail =20
gone round=20
a blind corner bend.=20

Heavy haul=20
between ghosts=20
of town stations=20
past Slim Chance=20
to No Option=20
throttled passage
along the platforms=20
of dead wave. =20
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Into a forever=20
of headed out=20
rusting wheels=20
screaming night=20
mares a gallop=20
grey shade of never=20
made it through
that long tunnel.=20

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230520A
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One day=20
say the next=20
changes all=20
to screw wise=20
dick around=20
the revolting=20
jumped on=20
and put down.

The revolution=20
not televised=20
is a beheaded corpse
felled by the axes=20
of programming=20
committee actions=20
gone populist=20
support strategy.=20

Never criticize=20
rising critics
guardians of public=20
funded pustule=20
forms of damnation=20
to the out of step=20
with purity rituals=20
all made same.=20

Jerk ropes hang=20
the let it go=20
spurt voided=20
dumb down
stupor formations=20
of common exiles=20
in silly walk routines
along wall scrawl.=20

Open window
screaming despair  =20
into the unheard=20
past the not wants=20
of  massive=20
pull down herds
trampling over=20
a fractured mentality.=20

Asked  impossible=20
holy watered =20
dilute dispensations=20
poured dead soul=20
into theatrical staged=20
gone dark times=20
shuttering nameless=20
held dream fetters.=20

Nothing forward=20
ruins the look=20
back across topped
out shoulder rubbed
up against it all
until laugh worn=20
out rag defeat ridden=20
into emptied waste.=20

Trash can approach
along a dead line=20
horizon sight=20
of never picked=20
droppings rot edged=20
out broken scene
formalities pile
driven hard kept
into depression.=20

Fed on appetites=20
of the never wants=20
any chanced have=20
silenced offerings
pass over dark=20
angels of death=20
leave burials=20
of remains of self.=20

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050620A
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No lucky
lead character
in a TV series
of narrow escapes
death defiant=20
scream screen idols
into rerun seasons.=20

Live forever=20
never long enough=20
to raise up out
of the push  through=20
brick walls crunch
hard into
the left out side.=20

Discard object=20
punched ticket
forms of unimportant=20
slash rosters spun
slot machine pulled
handle down spare
change exhaustion.=20

Wanted for someone=20
in a lovely get out=20
side of it all=20
long stretch wearied=20
fallen off endless=20
round about taken=20
in for the ride.

Must be something=20
better than down=20
forever lines=20
kept waiting slow
as drain clog=20
processed thought=20
blockades.=20

Illusions of love=20
in love lost wakes=20
of nothing special=20
memorized or reported
official digest menu
items of unpleasant=20
personal dealings.=20

Common is nothing=20
shared in common=20
on any flirt level=20
near totalled disregard
streamed ditch side=20
stuck at show and tell  =20
emptied by rumours.=20

Solitaire games=20
eat steady away=20
happenstance plots
of shallow pretends=20
makes freedom alone=20
verges of pushed in=20
to any nothingness.=20

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050620B
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Stiff and rigid=20
mass of no way
broken down tries=20
at never broke out
to get loose
out of dead gulch=20
tribe of never know.=20

Strangle hold=20
of bilge comments=20
pissed fence line
porn vision=20
rants fantasy talk=20
to snot drip listens
substance damaged.=20

Street stink=20
infuses burnt meat=20
and too sick=20
to drink numb shots=20
aimed dead targets=20
listening brain rot=20
compost gossip.=20

Non negotiable=20
glue slick living
the social bargain=20
of Diptera Cyclorrphapha=20
Musca Domestica=20
writ up fly paper large
as ars gratia artis.=20

Stuck for it all=20
gone fumble catch=20
at too many rules=20
to play tangle at
ends stricken
with purely being=20
lost at a turn off. =20

The big smear=20
shit runs down=20
into flood valley=20
shadow of death=20
at go on getting to
know any out boxed =20
canyon facsimile. =20

The door mat=20
no longer on the lists
for getting in over
closure worn scuff=20
underfoot blamed
and booted out scrub
to where trees laugh.=20

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050620C
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A perpetual rag=20
ragged at wanting=20
any generic fit=20
passage chanced=20
musing perhaps
someone else=20
in the Never Know.=20

Street of ghosts
made to feel=20
the plug and unplug=20
operator assist=20
dead connections=20
turned coin tossed=20
quantum well dark.=20

Never wish any
knowing any scrawl=20
on white board eyes=20
jacking up the price
tags of windows=20
shopping high=20
as a sky limit.=20

Pretend friends=20
in the seance aether=20
spilling alphabets=20
on the global Ouija
of make believe=20
that it can happen =20
in the after life.  =20

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050620D
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Jerked off line=20
a torn lip fish=20
scuppered past=20
ripped leaving
tender pieces
out tossed bait=20
boxes of catch=20
nothing moves
caught guilty
bubble blown =20
in vicious seas.=20

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100620A
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Sit out the despair=20
times of clashed=20
colour barred=20
schemes crave=20
the psychedelic=20
white room rental=20
personality breaks=20
down the anything=20
in suicide commons=20
bore hole estimates
shock clamped=20
monkey shit swings=20
grape vine life=20
strung out trial=20
caffeine prop lids
poured sag eyed=20
blank engagement=20
prized stares=20
into voids
of open up spread
sheet ritual waste
lands of time.=20

We accumulate=20
random indications=20
pointed disaster=20
flood level warnings=20
risen too lonely=20
along wash out
reservoir banks=20
crumbling alluvial=20
emptied memory=20
pockets of clay=20
contents making=20
out something=20
from symbol debris=20
fields scatter shot=20
epiphany assumptions=20
of not wanted=20
don't know where
backwaters of jive=20
clinging tight lines=20
snap of wishing=20
carried away fresh
wave feelings.=20

All the gone=20
nowhere to go=20
been taken in
to killed the feeling=20
wanderer in wonder
places of dulled=20
senseless not=20
happenings along
far stretch border
lines of dead=20
mind states stuck
on drift channels=20
nothing doing=20
emptied returns
sad sack carried
down that river=20
of ever forget=20
past never get over
time and again=20
at almost had=20
a something when=20
the lights go dark.=20

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Feeling real gone and beat. If this were the 1960's it might still have bee=
n fashionable, but I have gone so gone that I have gone right off all the t=
rends. So that means almost no one, ever, finds me.  No one does even if I =
am actually looking to be found, which I usually am. To be found by someone=
 as real gone as I am gone, and sometimes nothing less would ever actually =
do, beyond suffering some more silenced darkness.