Poems: 120720 - July 12th, 2020

080720A
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Was a bad boy 
meaning bad 
at being a boy 
liked never 
boys very much. 

Play house life
learned television
early warning Father
Knows Best character
building blocks. 

Girl next door 
play time 
not dinky toy
doll baby sat 
escapee of bullied. 

Peace Memorial 
radar kinder station  
last race cripple
in shiny Sunday 
polished shoe Onward 
Christian Soldiers. 

Grown too old 
in third grade 
tossing bean bags 
grenade circle 
stretcher carry
obstacles course. 

Rot rumours
start way about
the any what
never happened 
sneaking out.

Shower stall
whip towelled  
naked displays
dread lanky
growth spurt 
and muscle fail. 

Clumsy tongued 
fumble balls 
stumble run stressed
memory lapse 
and unpopular episode
and failed to score. 

Fast sinking 
sum ergo cogito
declined amatum
into amo amare 
chocolate boxed
soft centred body. 

Poet in training 
stretch noodled 
forgotten equations 
lacked magnetism
a prop spin of lost
in backstage space. 

Hiding never when 
climate of held 
safe under covers
of bedded down in
geography books.

Out of place 
subject meander 
concentration shift
clatter arguments 
of white flagged 
hanky surrenders.  

Toll of wishes 
end full stopped 
mid sentenced 
misplace of feeling 
time out and after  
out of  time 

Missed that lesson 
that changed it all 
into rock solid sorts
of extreme ordinary
habit expressions
of total estrangement. 

Reminisce is
hangover of life 
gone back over 
each morning after 
shock therapeutic 
revolver action.

Shot down right
into an emptiness 
between paired eyes 
trying to penetrate 
the public secrets
others all knew. 

Shot in the dark 
of yesterdays 
brings back up 
swallowed down 
hoped pride hard
on puke pavement. 

Side lined between
shirts and skins 
to dying out
on no man's land 
barbed wire squeeze
strangled throat. 

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080720B
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Fools rush in
to account for
counting house
status of mind 
fallen crest  
long run side
taken in disaster. 

Raise it high 
to being 
put down 
flying your own
crotch flag 
territorial colours
of pretend proud. 

Displaced person 
struggle place since
war effort before
and after birth
cleared away left
to ration pursuit
of as if happiness. 
 
What gets though 
the stutter point 
done in spray 
habits making 
an end story
that ends me
and ends you. 

All the leaving 
bet optioned
token bit parts 
betting bitter love
reminisce shred
letters and arts
into meaningless.  

Goes up must 
come down long
bad trip roughed
up show time 
bumped road 
curbed heckle
of personality clash.  

Many happy 
face lies 
memory books
end at dropped 
invite cards
slipped between 
not and have. 

Some are 
someone made 
and not others  
out anyone to
no matter what
struck middle 
of fallen out 

Where go we
thither hither 
worn habit weave 
the never find 
carryall in undertow  
tight drag of who
is who bottomed. 

Mind dredge
half dig truths
wobbly funk
too gone deep 
side drop jabber
of unreal banana 
monkey brass.   
 
Dropped in slot 
systemic turn off 
tune stuffed
head of excelsior 
out chanced past
last straw pulled 
channel denial. 

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110720A
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No yesterday 
for reunions 
sorted stranger 
left nothing 
behind for any 
formal look up. 

Knowing the not
of anyone would 
tangle reasons 
with ghosts like us 
into maybe threads 
of different stories. 

The outline sketch 
never filled in 
with knowing any 
in the old crowd 
separate ways
faded to colourless. 

Tear down culture
long before now
unwanted stands
arranged discard 
row housed spatter
blocked in walls. 

Giving sway high
rising viewed 
soars tree line stretch
Tinyville ambition
swag and clutter 
boxed success. 

Stacked towers 
crated storage 
mildly decorated 
displays of rabbit
warren steadied  
chase of intoxication. 

Was looking there 
for a quick way out 
slip slide breach 
of know nothing 
goes all the way 
to before its through. 

Used to fall 
on a face of love 
hard and harder
to recognize 
creating a long list
of possible suspects. 

Liking too obvious 
was another sent away 
to remedial 
indifference lessons
no quiet in peace
and no peace in quiet.

Birdhouse zombie 
of street passages
penned up lonely
boulevard specials 
portion packed
fence row claims.

The meaning to be
is found absence 
left out  
alley trashed 
monumental things
all equally discarded 

Never found your
door to my dream
and my door 
to your dream 
but we are dreaming
separate dreams.

Stuck and hurry 
game of mortality 
dulled play things 
drab in the afternoon
dead spots lulled
false sense surrender.
 
Meanders far out 
past too usual
going wander eyes
along other worlds 
edge of not dare 
crossed over.

Past hold back 
clamped earth ground 
Electricland desires 
rapid pulse bursts 
of Mesmer gestures 
at ice blood melt. 

We go gently 
fearing rift space 
time of abandon 
plunged derelict void 
into never when fail
any launch attempts. 

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Bits of was and wasn't, lived and only thought, merged into a text of quantum interrogations. Full of peculiar confessions.