Poems: 010820 - August 1st, 2020

270720A
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Depend on
undependable things=20
and on anyone=20
packaged in with them
comes along=20
for the ride=20
that takes you down=20
into the lonely with.=20

Hate to admit=20
you do not like
any of the what=20
that someone chose=20
to flesh into
the cosy corners=20
you tried to defend=20
from hostile takeovers.=20

All that ever meant=20
is special dislikes=20
makes for friends=20
to keep distance=20
comfort zoned
table arranged=20
at the rub elbows=20
of the don't want.=20

Erogenous drugs=20
jacking off places=20
in mind drift
sticky banter dances
making celebration
of dead subjects=20
reconfigure being=20
into placeholders.=20

Wanting someone=20
in the usual crowds=20
of the not there
takes it all down=20
arranged singular=20
blasts of social
dismemberments
on the mind fields.=20

Chatter boxed in=20
to stuffed full
with not
having any=20
that really feels=20
like anything=20
closer than over=20
a sliver of Moon.

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270720B
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Killed it=20
before the get up=20
and the after=20
of parting shot=20
wipe outs =20
in allegations
of the valleys=20
of pelvis.

Nearly met=20
beloveds=20
in the scatter=20
heaped=20
of otherness=20
pointless looks
for the unreal
of a real thing.=20

No one=20
was the only =20
truly of sincere
around about it
all takes time
to dying out
without better
sorted options.=20

Cut off dead=20
line thin=20
shorted ropes=20
of strangle projects=20
at stumble start=20
turned cancel=20
for a laugh=20
culture.=20

Don't know =20
in the never will=20
phase outs
of anticipations
past the blocked
off tragedies=20
waste of the best
of times.=20

Leaves at
trying to forget
being a discard=20
wrap up=20
to that maximum
of get=20
breaking away=20
the was not yet.=20

A build up=20
along borders=20
of silence waved=20
good bye=20
sampled hostilities=20
all gone intent=20
ways and means
differences.=20

It never grew=20
from stunted=20
scrubbed missions
tangle of no=20
body really
left at far out=20
shock wave
let downs.=20

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270720C
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Thought curdling=20
silent scream
spikes the dulled=20
out of context =20
conditions pressed=20
out seedy spurt=20
ejection of catch =20
culture subsistence
ventures of discourage.

Eat a heart crush=20
out of hollow=20
candy shelled
empty run on
records of searched
for the never found
and each starburst=20
along the go to
in the never reached.

Incessant climb
crashed looks
life goes for=20
take out=20
shaped containers=20
tempted sugar=20
talk sweets
grind habit sorts
of fixes.=20

All the teardrops=20
in the world=20
cried for no one=20
in me love you=20
statements of mind
filled up=20
salt shaker full
white scratches=20
of sprinkle.=20

charcoal blacked
burnt crisp suffers
deactivated down=20
distillate  to isolate
might have been
raw ingredient=20
failed at don't
know what ever=20
of really about.=20

Psychology plea=20
bargain of versions
revised modern
explanations why
we don't ever
and never could=20
really get that=20
way out of our
owned minds.=20

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010820A
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Time ticks on=20
swallowed up=20
in the don't know=20
what and to do
about and around=20
wander anything =20
place to taken=20
on spin rides
in make dizzy=20
take downs=20
confusion clog=20
of that way=20
and this way
to no way at all.=20

The do you in=20
to the only=20
to do you out=20
of any  possible=20
choose from=20
bits of cancel=20
cultured options=20
snap rubber=20
band plays=20
its dead song=20
deep sting=20
broken rip
sawed remains=20
of snap soul.

Little doll=20
trapped pin=20
sharp pain=20
of no one=20
in the nowhere=20
cries the lone=20
stuck at no way
to go forward=20
or go back
gets nothing=20
but a laugh=20
on the run down
run over route=20
of a two way. =20
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Taking damage=20
both sides=20
of cannot solve
the primal=20
equation variables=20
ends at factored =20
out of it all=20
clock ticking=20
the dead line=20
roster drop=20
beat down=20
into stale dated=20
trash cornered=20
dream bursts.=20

They exploded=20
the dreamt=20
welcome sorts=20
of any real
and wanted=20
in the ever after=20
writing out
of torment scene=20
left to fail=20
attempted gone
the jump off
point blank=20
imagined freed=20
at no chance.=20

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010820B
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Woman's prerogative
catch glance of say
out of flash floods=20
quickened humanity=20
along rush overs=20
routed detour void
brush aside winged=20
death angels passing=20
in hush conversation=20
avoidance of any
alien contact.=20

Wilt into invisible=20
horror of soft touch=20
picked at bone=20
near the poison=20
of watering hole=20
crowded slickers=20
in the babble same=20
pull string repeat=20
limits of tonal range=20
tongue depressed
coin slot phrases.=20

Nothing to say=20
through the cracks=20
between interrupts=20
so hold your tongue=20
and stick it in=20
your own pocket =20
where it can play=20
a death rattle=20
of wondering if=20
you are wanted=20
poster material.=20

Heartless deck=20
of poker face hands
shifty eyed gleams
at the scuttlebutt=20
and boast wager=20
brow damp rush=20
felt distant scream=20
losing streak=20
at the take away=20
turned bum's rush=20
concrete terms.=20

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It is a mad, mad, world. Try as hard as you might, to really connect where =
you would really want to connect to, it remains all about the disconnection=
s. No point playing postman anymore. There is nothing personal in that mail=
 box. No point waiting for that phone to ring. When the bells toll, they to=
ll for you, but it is nothing personal.