Always alone, never without you 6/?

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Title: Always alone, never without you 6/?

Author: Malicia Nocturna (Krista)

Rating: from G to NC-17, varies from chapter to chapter

Disclaimer: Characters from Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Angel The Series belong to Joss Whedon etc. the story is mine.

Feedback: yes please :]

Distribution: Sure, ask first

Pairings: B/A, B/S, Spike/Drusilla, Spike/Darla, X/A, W/O, Joyce/Giles possibly others. I have to see where this story is taking me ;) 

Timing: AU, Buffy is a college student, she is living at home with her mom and sister Dawn. Willow is her best friend, Angel is Buffy's long-term boyfriend. Everyone is human.

Summary: Angel and Buffy have been together for ages. Angel is working in a law firm called Wolfram and Hart, Buffy is a college student. At one night their friend Cordelia is having a party and Buffy meets an interesting guy there. 

 

Chapter 6

 

Spike left with Drusilla and Buffy stood outside watching them leave.

It has become a habit now, walking away, watching the other one walking away.

Someone was always leaving. 

It was painful to watch him put his arm around Drusilla's slim figure. Buffy could understand why he was in love with Drusilla. They had so much in common. They both had this demonic spark in their eyes. They both fit perfectly into the night. 

Buffy loved the night but also the sunlight. Spike belonged to the darkness, she was somewhere in between. Never really fitting.

 

Angel walked to Buffy. He was a holding a bottle of beer, he had actually had several beers with Darla.

She was fun to talk to. Spending time with Darla had made him forget his worries and doubts. Not to mention her beauty. She wasn't a little girl anymore, she was a beautiful woman. Angel had felt good and relaxed and then he had seen something.

Angel wanted to scream. He had seen Spike and Buffy holding hands, spending time together behind his back AGAIN.

He tried to remain calm and sensible, but he was ready to explode.

"Can I have an explanation?" he asked.

"No," Buffy replied and looked away.

"Why. Why SPIKE?" Angel tried not to yell.

"I don't know," Buffy said and sighed. Then she left him standing there and walked away.

 

She was too tired and confused to even think of what Angel would do now.

Maybe he would go to Darla, maybe she wanted to comfort him, take care of him, make him feel better. 

Damned Darla.

What was about her that made all the men crazy? They acted like idiots, drooling all over her, following her around like brain dead puppies. 

 

She walked for hours, passed quiet alleys of Sunnydale, walked by the cemeteries and finally ended up to Revello Drive.

A familiar figure was standing in front of her house, staring at her window. He was smoking a cigarette. 

"Hey Spike," Buffy said quietly.

"Hey Miss Moonlight, what are you doing outside? I thought you were sleeping already," Spike said and gave Buffy a worried look.

"I am having troubles with Angel again. I needed some time to calm down and think," Buffy replied.

"What the hell are you doing here in the middle of the night?"

"I was just thinking about you and couldn't sleep," Spike said and smiled.

His smile was seductive and Buffy was ready to jump into his arms.

 

Suddenly she remembered something Angel had told her.

"Are you sleeping with Darla?" she asked with a harsh voice. 

Spike was shocked. 
That certainly wasn't the kind of question he had been expecting to hear. He had no idea what to say. How did Buffy know? 

Spike didn't want to lie to her, so all he could do was tell the truth.

"Yes," he whispered and avoided her gaze. 

"Oh god," Buffy said and closed her eyes.

This was like a nightmare. Darla was everywhere. Angel kept her company all night, Spike was sleeping with her.

"What about Drusilla? Don't tell me you are having threesome sessions," she said sarcastically. It was meant to be a joke but when she saw the look on his face she wished she could take it back. 

"Bloody hell," Spike said mostly to himself and tried to grab Buffy's arm.

"Don't touch me, pervert," Buffy spat and startled away from him.

"Buffy, it was before I met you," Spike said with a gentle voice.

Buffy just shook her head. She wasn't sure what she wanted Spike to say. His sex-life wasn't her business at all, but somehow it was horrible enough to think about him and Drusilla, making love. If that's what it was. But it was unbearable to imagine him, Drusilla AND Darla together.

"If you want I'll never lay a finger on Darla again," he said, "Buffy, look at me."
Buffy turned to Spike and he saw tears in her eyes.

"You can do what ever you want, I don't care," her voice was grim. 

"I am going to bed now, goodnight." She turned to leave but Spike stopped her.

"I understand if you don't want to see me ever again," he said quietly, "but I want to keep seeing you. I'm sorry for all the trouble have I caused."

Buffy sighed.

"It's not your fault, this is my mess, my problem," she sounded tired.

"No Buffy, we are in this together. I've used to be alone and for the first time in my life I have found someone .someone I really care about. When I'm with you I don't feel lonely. You take my sadness away," he whispered and touched Buffy's cheek with his fingers. 

Buffy didn't push him away. His fingertips burned her skin. She felt cold and Spike's touch made her warmer. She wanted to give in to his touch, she wanted him to make her happy again. She stepped closer to him, felt his warm breath on her face.. She wanted to dive into the sweet oblivion.

Then she remembered Darla and turned away from Spike again.

"I have to go," she said and was about to leave when Spike put something into her hand. It was a piece of paper. 

"I wrote it for you," he said. Then he left.

"Goodnight Miss Moonlight," he said quietly and wasn't sure if Buffy had heard him.

 

Buffy sat on her bed, holding the piece of paper in her hand. She leaned to her bedside table and switched on the light. She stared at the paper for a long time before she finally started to read what was written in it. 

 

"I'm alone in the darkness of this world,

 in the coldness of this world,

I walk alone with faltering steps, 

I'm always alone

 

The darkness devours me,

holds me, comforts me, scares me,

because I have been alone,

always alone

 

Once I saw a true beauty in the night

fair and pale, 

and I wasn't alone, I wasn't afraid

I was complete

 

Now I want to live

near her, with her, close to her

never without her

I am bound to her

 

Maybe I am still alone,

always alone,

but she makes me complete

she makes me alive

 

and I can't live without her,

never without her

 

Never without you."

 

Tears were streaming down Buffy's cheeks. Spike wrote a poem to HER. 

She read it over and over again and finally she stood up and walked to a mirror.

She stared at her reflection; her hair was messy, her make-up was ruined but her eyes were burning.

Then she finally admitted it. 

"I am in love with Spike," she said to her reflection, "and he can never know."



TBC

 


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<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
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style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Rating: from G to NC-17, varies from cha=
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chapter<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Disclaimer: Characters from Buffy the Va=
mpire=20
Slayer and Angel The Series belong to Joss Whedon etc=85 the story is=20
mine.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Feedback: yes please :]<o:p></o:p></SPAN=
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<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Distribution: Sure, ask=20
first<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Pairings: B/A, B/S, Spike/Drusilla,=20
Spike/Darla, X/A, W/O, Joyce/Giles possibly others=85 I have to see where t=
his=20
story is taking me ;) <o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Timing: AU, Buffy is a college student, =
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lang=3DEN-GB style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB"> is her best friend, Angel =
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style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Summary: Angel and Buffy have been toget=
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ages. Angel is working in a law firm called Wolfram and Hart, Buffy is a co=
llege=20
student. At one night their friend Cordelia is having a party and Buffy mee=
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<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
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<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Chapter 6<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
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<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Spike left with Drusilla and Buffy stood=
=20
outside watching them leave.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">It has become a habit now, walking away,=
=20
watching the other one walking away=85<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Someone was always leaving.=20
<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">It was painful to watch him put his arm =
around=20
Drusilla=92s slim figure. Buffy could understand why he was in love with Dr=
usilla.=20
They had so much in common. They both had this demonic spark in their eyes.=
 They=20
both fit perfectly into the night. <o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Buffy loved the night but also the sunli=
ght.=20
Spike belonged to the darkness, she was somewhere in between. Never really=
=20
fitting.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB"><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Angel walked to Buffy. He was a holding =
a=20
bottle of beer, he had actually had several beers with=20
Darla.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">She was fun to talk to. Spending time wi=
th=20
Darla had made him forget his worries and doubts. Not to mention her beauty=
=85 She=20
wasn=92t a little girl anymore, she was a beautiful woman. Angel had felt g=
ood and=20
relaxed and then he had seen something=85<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Angel wanted to scream. He had seen Spik=
e and=20
Buffy holding hands, spending time together behind his back=20
AGAIN.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">He tried to remain calm and sensible, bu=
t he=20
was ready to explode.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93Can I have an explanation?=94 he=20
asked.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93No,=94 Buffy replied and looked=20
away.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93Why=85 Why SPIKE?=94 Angel tried not =
to=20
yell.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93I don=92t know,=94 Buffy said and sig=
hed. Then she=20
left him standing there and walked away.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB"><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">She was too tired and confused to even t=
hink of=20
what Angel would do now.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Maybe he would go to Darla, maybe she wa=
nted to=20
comfort him, take care of him, make him feel better=85 <o:p></o:p></SPAN></=
P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Damned Darla.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">What was about her that made all the men=
 crazy?=20
They acted like idiots, drooling all over her, following her around like br=
ain=20
dead puppies=85 <o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB"><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">She walked for hours, passed quiet alley=
s of=20
Sunnydale, walked by the cemeteries and finally ended up to=20
</SPAN><st1:Street><st1:address><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Revello=20
Drive</SPAN></st1:address></st1:Street><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">A familiar figure was standing in front =
of her=20
house, staring at her window. He was smoking a cigarette. <o:p></o:p></SPAN=
></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93Hey Spike,=94 Buffy said=20
quietly.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93Hey Miss Moonlight, what are you doin=
g=20
outside? I thought you were sleeping already,=94 Spike said and gave Buffy =
a=20
worried look.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93I am having troubles with Angel again=
. I=20
needed some time to calm down and think,=94 Buffy replied.<o:p></o:p></SPAN=
></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93What the hell are you doing here in t=
he middle=20
of the night?=94<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93I was just thinking about you and cou=
ldn=92t=20
sleep,=94 Spike said and smiled.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">His smile was seductive and Buffy was re=
ady to=20
jump into his arms.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB"><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Suddenly she remembered something Angel =
had=20
told her.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93Are you sleeping with Darla?=94 she a=
sked with a=20
harsh voice. <o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Spike was shocked. <BR>That certainly wa=
sn=92t=20
the kind of question he had been expecting to hear. He had no idea what to =
say.=20
How did Buffy know? <o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Spike didn=92t want to lie to her, so al=
l he=20
could do was tell the truth.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93Yes,=94 he whispered and avoided her =
gaze.=20
<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93Oh god,=94 Buffy said and closed her=
=20
eyes.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">This was like a nightmare. Darla was=20
everywhere. Angel kept her company all night, Spike was sleeping with=20
her.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93What about Drusilla? Don=92t tell me =
you are=20
having threesome sessions,=94 she said sarcastically. It was meant to be a =
joke=20
but when she saw the look on his face she wished she could take it back.=20
<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93Bloody hell,=94 Spike said mostly to =
himself and=20
tried to grab Buffy=92s arm.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93Don=92t touch me, pervert,=94 Buffy s=
pat and=20
startled away from him.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93Buffy, it was before I met you,=94 Sp=
ike said=20
with a gentle voice.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Buffy just shook her head. She wasn=92t =
sure what=20
she wanted Spike to say. His sex-life wasn=92t her business at all, but som=
ehow it=20
was horrible enough to think about him and Drusilla, making love=85 If that=
=92s what=20
it was. But it was unbearable to imagine him, Drusilla AND Darla=20
together.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93If you want I=92ll never lay a finger=
 on Darla=20
again,=94 he said, =93Buffy, look at me.=94<BR>Buffy turned to Spike and he=
 saw tears=20
in her eyes.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93You can do what ever you want, I don=
=92t care,=94=20
her voice was grim. <o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93I am going to bed now, goodnight.=94 =
She turned=20
to leave but Spike stopped her.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93I understand if you don=92t want to s=
ee me ever=20
again,=94 he said quietly, =93but I want to keep seeing you. I=92m sorry fo=
r all the=20
trouble have I caused.=94<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Buffy sighed.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93It=92s not your fault, this is my mes=
s, my=20
problem,=94 she sounded tired.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93No Buffy, we are in this together. I=
=92ve used=20
to be alone and for the first time in my life I have found someone =85someo=
ne I=20
really care about. When I=92m with you I don=92t feel lonely. You take my s=
adness=20
away,=94 he whispered and touched Buffy=92s cheek with his fingers.=20
<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Buffy didn=92t push him away. His finger=
tips=20
burned her skin. She felt cold and Spike=92s touch made her warmer. She wan=
ted to=20
give in to his touch, she wanted him to make her happy again. She stepped c=
loser=20
to him, felt his warm breath on her face=85. She wanted to dive into the sw=
eet=20
oblivion.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Then she remembered Darla and turned awa=
y from=20
Spike again.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93I have to go,=94 she said and was abo=
ut to leave=20
when Spike put something into her hand. It was a piece of paper.=20
<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93I wrote it for you,=94 he said. Then =
he=20
left.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93Goodnight Miss Moonlight,=94 he said =
quietly and=20
wasn=92t sure if Buffy had heard him.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB"><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Buffy sat on her bed, holding the piece =
of=20
paper in her hand. She leaned to her bedside table and switched on the ligh=
t.=20
She stared at the paper for a long time before she finally started to read =
what=20
was written in it. <o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB"><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><I=20
style=3D"mso-bidi-font-style: normal"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93I=92m alone in the darkness of this=20
world,<o:p></o:p></SPAN></I></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><I=20
style=3D"mso-bidi-font-style: normal"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB"><SPAN style=3D"mso-spacerun: yes">&nbsp;=
</SPAN>in=20
the coldness of this world,<o:p></o:p></SPAN></I></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><I=20
style=3D"mso-bidi-font-style: normal"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">I walk alone with faltering steps,=20
<o:p></o:p></SPAN></I></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><I=20
style=3D"mso-bidi-font-style: normal"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">I=92m always alone<o:p></o:p></SPAN></I>=
</P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><I=20
style=3D"mso-bidi-font-style: normal"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB"><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></SPAN></I></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><I=20
style=3D"mso-bidi-font-style: normal"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">The darkness devours=20
me,<o:p></o:p></SPAN></I></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><I=20
style=3D"mso-bidi-font-style: normal"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">holds me, comforts me, scares=20
me,<o:p></o:p></SPAN></I></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><I=20
style=3D"mso-bidi-font-style: normal"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">because I have been=20
alone,<o:p></o:p></SPAN></I></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><I=20
style=3D"mso-bidi-font-style: normal"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">always alone<o:p></o:p></SPAN></I></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><I=20
style=3D"mso-bidi-font-style: normal"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB"><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></SPAN></I></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><I=20
style=3D"mso-bidi-font-style: normal"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Once I saw a true beauty in the=20
night<o:p></o:p></SPAN></I></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><I=20
style=3D"mso-bidi-font-style: normal"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">fair and pale, <o:p></o:p></SPAN></I></P=
>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><I=20
style=3D"mso-bidi-font-style: normal"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">and I wasn=92t alone, I wasn=92t=20
afraid<o:p></o:p></SPAN></I></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><I=20
style=3D"mso-bidi-font-style: normal"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">I was complete<o:p></o:p></SPAN></I></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><I=20
style=3D"mso-bidi-font-style: normal"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB"><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></SPAN></I></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><I=20
style=3D"mso-bidi-font-style: normal"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Now I want to live<o:p></o:p></SPAN></I>=
</P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><I=20
style=3D"mso-bidi-font-style: normal"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">near her, with her, close to=20
her<o:p></o:p></SPAN></I></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><I=20
style=3D"mso-bidi-font-style: normal"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">never without her<o:p></o:p></SPAN></I><=
/P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><I=20
style=3D"mso-bidi-font-style: normal"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">I am bound to her<o:p></o:p></SPAN></I><=
/P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><I=20
style=3D"mso-bidi-font-style: normal"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB"><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></SPAN></I></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><I=20
style=3D"mso-bidi-font-style: normal"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Maybe I am still=20
alone,<o:p></o:p></SPAN></I></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><I=20
style=3D"mso-bidi-font-style: normal"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">always alone,<o:p></o:p></SPAN></I></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><I=20
style=3D"mso-bidi-font-style: normal"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">but she makes me=20
complete<o:p></o:p></SPAN></I></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><I=20
style=3D"mso-bidi-font-style: normal"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">she makes me alive<o:p></o:p></SPAN></I>=
</P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><I=20
style=3D"mso-bidi-font-style: normal"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB"><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></SPAN></I></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><I=20
style=3D"mso-bidi-font-style: normal"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">and I can=92t live without=20
her,<o:p></o:p></SPAN></I></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><I=20
style=3D"mso-bidi-font-style: normal"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">never without her<o:p></o:p></SPAN></I><=
/P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><I=20
style=3D"mso-bidi-font-style: normal"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB"><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></SPAN></I></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><I=20
style=3D"mso-bidi-font-style: normal"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Never without you.=94<o:p></o:p></SPAN><=
/I></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB"><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Tears were streaming down Buffy=92s chee=
ks. Spike=20
wrote a poem to HER. <o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">She read it over and over again and fina=
lly she=20
stood up and walked to a mirror.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">She stared at her reflection; her hair w=
as=20
messy, her make-up was ruined but her eyes were burning.<o:p></o:p></SPAN><=
/P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Then she finally admitted it.=20
<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93I am in love with Spike,=94 she said =
to her=20
reflection, =93and he can never know.=94</SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB"></SPAN>&nbsp;</P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB"><FONT face=3DArial><FONT=20
size=3D2>TBC<o:p></o:p></FONT></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB"><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></SPAN></P></DIV>
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