Re: The O2 isn't helping and I'm suicidal

"D.F. Manno"

| >
| > > The depression is just getting worse. I go back and forth between
| > > wanting to get an Uzi and start shooting random passersby, and wanting
| > > to get a fifth of Jim Beam and take all the pills in my house.
| >
| > Well I'm on the other side of the same problem....
| > It's easy for me to say, but try to hang in there.
| >
| > Maybe try to find a support group near you that can send someone to
visit
| > with you?
|
| I've been assigned a visiting psych nurse to fill the gap until I'm
admitted to
| the program. But we've been having logistical problems. I can't seem to
make him
| understand why it's unacceptable for him to come to my home at the same
time my
| aide is here. One, it's a confidentality issue, and two, if he comes while
my
| aide is giving me my bath, for example, who's supposed to sit and twiddle
their
| thumbs while the other is doing his/her job?
|
| Until the last two weeks or so, he also didn't understand why he couldn't
call
| me in the morning to make an appointment to see me the _same_ day.
|
| The visit before last he said he'd be here at 10am. He showed up at
11:20am and
| stayed for all of 10 minutes, said he was sick. The last time the
appintment was
| for 9:30am. I was awake. No one rang the bell or knocked on the door, and
then I
| get a call accusing me of dodging him and saying he was here and did ring
the
| bell and knock on the door. So now they think I'm lying.
|
| I'd like to ditch the guy, but the agency trying to get me into the
hospital
| said that I have to work with this guy in the interim. The "or else" was
| unspoken.
|
| > If you go thru an inpatient program, wouldn't they have to find you a
place
| > to live before releasing you? Maybe you would end up in a better
| > neighborhood.
|
| They said they would, but I was on the priority waiting list for housing
for
| over a year when I got this apartment. If it takes another year after
discharge,
| where do I stay in the meantime?

Checked with the neighbor lady her recommendations:

a) check with your social worker
b) there is no reason to require you to have both at the house at the same
time.
c) there is no reasons that you must accommodate the personal needs of
either if it is to your disadvantage.
d) check with the second 8 coordinator for you area.

My recommendation: If they give you too much sh|t consider calling your
congresscritter's local office for assistance in 'how to handle address the
matter/problem'