Re: I guess it's my turn

Seemed like forever.  From the first day I decided to make it my job  
to find a job.  I literally worked every weekday all day looking for  
work.  I got up early, got dressed up for work and went in my office  
and closed the door until 5-6pm.  Every day. Sent out dozens of  
customized resumes, called everyone I could, kept job journals,  
searched the web, did everything I could.  I haven't been that focused  
in a long long time.  I was driven by terror.  It was weird.  The  
weekends were really rough...all I could think of was "not another  
weekend" without work.  The uncertainty was unbearable and I couldn't  
do anything about it.  It was a real out of control psychotic  
episode.  Ha!  I'm not sure what it was this time, maybe it was my  
age.  Maybe it was I couldn't hide my "out of control"-edness from my  
kids anymore, they being teenagers now.  I've been in between jobs  
before but I experienced nothing like this.  I couldn't sleep and when  
I did I had nightmares.  Funny thing is, I've never been more  
financially secure in my life than I was when this happened, yet I've  
never been more terrified.  Maybe it was all those lessons and movies  
of the depression and dust bowl we had shown our kids. Maybe it was  
filling my brain with too many worst case scenarios...I don't know.   
But I've been driven.  And now I feel really exhausted.  Think I'm  
going to take the day off tomorrow!

regards,
-Lance

On Mar 22, 2011, at 10:53 PM, Peter T. Chattaway wrote:

> On Tue, 22 Mar 2011, Johne Cook wrote:
>> Sounds great, Lance. That was really very fast, all things  
>> considered. You're a stud!  ; )
>
> Yeah, fast indeed!  Congrats!
>
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