Looking ahead to the Sun

Friends:

I don't intend to  publicly wallow in this Lupus situation -- but we have
been learning more interesting things about the latest crisis attack which
came and peaked on December 3 and early
December 4.  I got out the hospital this time yesterday --
December 9. Ours is the most virulently systemic form of Lupus: swift and
very hard  and hungry voracious  attacks.

 The Lupus we're fighting goes after other body organs with a bloody
passion,

Once again on December 3, I lay there in the mountain  hospital: totally
unable to move, delirious, hallucinating, vacant-eyed,  Totally dehydrated.

The intake doctor -- not part of our regular team which was coming fast --
said to
Eldri and that portion of the family that had, thus far, gotten there,

"I think I must tell you people that not everyone by any means who reaches
this condition ever makes it"  He hesitated, then asked:  "If he starts to
slip away,what shall I  try to do?"

Eldri is the most gentle soul in the Universe.  But now family folk saw her
semi Mongol Lapp [Saami]
eyes glint -- hard, sharp, flintily. "Bring him back," she ordered.

Family members were there from 3 pm for many hours.

And the crisis very slowly began to pass in ICU.

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This was the third time in three months that Lupus  has struck me swiftly
and lethally out of the blue -- almost doing me in once again.  It could
strike again. anytime -- or never.  We simply do not know.

What I do know is that it's critical to keep fighting -- and to always
remember that if one lives with grace he/she should be prepared to die with
grace.

How much time do I have?  Maybe lots, maybe not much.

I and others are now working on our Pocatello
Area Anti-Racist Conference once again.  I'm writing on Indian rights and
militant, democratic unionism.

But I'd like,too,  within the now somewhat narrowed borders of my
canyon-of-life, to help others do some good things as well. Let me know.

In the mountains of southeastern Idaho.

Nialetch/Onen

Hunter Gray  [Hunterbear] Micmac / St Francis Abenaki/ St Regis Mohawk
www.hunterbear.org
Protected by Na´shdo´i´ba´i´
and Ohkwari'


In our Gray Hole, the ghosts often dance in the junipers and sage, on the
game trails, in the tributary canyons with the thick red maples, and on the
high windy ridges -- and they dance from within the very essence of our own
inner being. They do this especially when the bright night moon shines down
on the clean white snow that covers the valley and its surroundings.  Then
it is as bright as day -- but in an always soft and mysterious and
remembering way. [Hunterbear]











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