Re: 50

On Saturday, February 3, 2024 at 11:35:31=E2=80=AFAM UTC-8, Les Albert wrot=
e:
> On Thu, 1 Feb 2024 17:41:30 -0800 (PST), Beaver Fever=20
> <[email protected]> wrote:
> >On Thursday, February 1, 2024 at 5:21:09?PM UTC-8, Les Albert wrote:=20
> >> On Tue, 30 Jan 2024 19:42:16 -0800 (PST), Beaver Fever=20
> >> <[email protected]> wrote:=20
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> >> >Oh fuck, I'm 50!=20
> >> >Didn't see that coming.=20
> >> >Anything I should know? Anything I should be doing?=20
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> >> Prepare a will.
> >I wanted to a few years ago and asked my (now former) roommate to be the=
 executor.=20
> >He said no. He is so fucking lazy which is why his living situation was =
downgraded from=20
> >half apartment to couch. But I am sure he wouldn't want my relatives her=
e digging thru my stuff.=20
> >Wanna do one and just make my girlfriend the executor whether she likes =
it or not.=20
> >As it is I made her a beneficiary of one of my accounts so if I were to =
die anytime soon it would=20
> >create quite a windfall for her. Definitely not telling her though lest =
she decides to push forward=20
> >the date of the unfortunate event.=20
> >I am sure the ravages of medical neglect will be catching up to me soone=
r than later.
> Even with proper medical attention things can suddenly go south. One=20
> of my favorite authors wrote the following:=20
> "The world is a peculiar place. Tottery old ladies, people you=20
> wouldn't trust to navigate a grocery cart, are heading two-ton cars in=20
> your direction at speeds of seventy miles per hour. Our lives depend=20
> on strangers. So much lacks logic or a proper sequence." - from=20
> "Morgan's Passing" - Anne Tyler.=20
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> Les

Or as I like to point out , for Carl Wilson the end (of his touring career)=
 came in the middle of a 5 show run so it can come quick.=20

The medical neglect is more a reference to the fact that I still don't have=
 health insurance or been to the doctor since I was 18. I thought 50 was co=
lonoscopy time but apparently it's 45. I already have an enlarged prostate =
in addition to other hopefully minor stuff I have been ignoring for years. =
I thought maybe I should do something about it in spite of the fact I haven=
't worked in years and don't really want to watch my savings fly out the do=
or even faster. It's bad enough my cost of living basically tripled between=
 2020 and now. And I just missed open enrollment.=20

I could get a job (with few skills and almost no interpersonal ability) but=
 going to work to stay alive so I can keep going to work really doesn't app=
eal to me. However something strange happened in the last few years. Seems =
like along with my sex drive, my constant angst and suicidal ideation also =
faded. It's almost like the two were related. But I wanna stay alive so I c=
an read and listen to music and pet my cat, not just suck down oxygen while=
 toiling away.

I did want to theoretically donate my body to Glendale Community College wh=
ere I sputtered through a few semesters of "fun" electives as I figured in =
death I could have some sort of value to someone but never really looked in=
to the process.=20