Re: so down over have a miscarriage

marika <[email protected]> wrote:
> marika <[email protected]> wrote:
>> marika <[email protected]> wrote:
>>> marika <[email protected]> wrote:
>>>> 
>>>> I Remember when my relatives would visit and sit under the shade in breezy
>>>> lawn chairs while my parents mowed and weeded and hacked?
>>>> Physical work is nice, some help is nicer.
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>>> I feel guilty for wearing socks
>>> 
>>> Had i gone out my ordinary time,,,without putting them on, the hawk
>>> wouldn’t have got to mynhen
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>> 
>> I remember when the older hen who we called Terrorist was all alone for 4
>> months, every day locked in the pen because Ma refused to let her out until
>> the fence was built. She became fairly unpleasant during that time. Bored,
>> lonely, brain damage...  I’m not sure which, but she became kind of weird
>> and not fun to be around anymore.
>> Then when we got the two baby hens, she became even more intolerable and
>> pushy.
>> 
>> I wish I had thought to put dog silhouette decoys in the yard. They deter
>> birds of prey. I see them on the way to work, in fields where farmers have
>> lambs and chickens and duck,  I wish I had thought to get some. I feel
>> really guilty for not thinking of it.
>> 
>> 
>> 
> 
> So I was concerned the babies were getting big and need more space, so I
> got another box and assembled an attached second room for their original
> box, so they have twice as much space now, and these 2 weirdos won't step a
> single foot into room #2. It took me like 2 hours to move the boxes into
> the living room and clean and rearrange and attach everything and the
> little losers won't even go in it! And I also think, it looks to me that my
> sister isn't cleaning much when she goes home once per week. I spend more
> time vacuuming all the spilled food and bedding from the floor
> around/outside the box, then doing anything else. And I know for certain
> that the box is too tall for the birds to be kicking bedding out
> themselves, it must be a human making that mess.
> 
> I went to a  plant sale today to get some plants for Ma and I met Natalie
> for the first time. She is one odd bird. She spent most of the time telling
> me that Ma is raising her monarchs wrong, and the rest of the time asking
> me how much longer I think Ma can stay in the house. I told her she can
> stay there for as long as we keep either doing her care and home upkeep, or
> paying someone else to help us....What an odd thing for her to ask
> 
>  how pretty their little feathers are getting. Brown one is almost twice
> the size of black one now, by the way.
> 
> 

I couldn't find a picture of winter Daphne with berries, just one with
flowers.
Imagine all these flowers becoming red berries, which they will do
eventually.


I think my laundry smelling  plant is a Daphne odora

Small flowers, large fragrance.
This is surprising me immensely now.
The reason why it is surprising me so much is because NOBODY landscapes
with Daphne.
They are not the easiest plants to grow. (Ma and I have at least 5
cultivars each, in our respective gardens, mattyafack Ma has one directly
under the living room window, to the right of their front door). Though
neither of us grow this particular cultivar because of the dreaded zone
envy.
daphnes are considered a true gardeners specialty plant because it is not
so easy to grow, because it is not widely available (Home Depot doesn't
sell it) and because truth be told, the plant itself isn't particularly
pretty. People love a plant that has visual "pow!" to it. This one does
not, but real gardeners grow it for the challenge and for the scent alone.
Most regular people are either too afraid or too stupid to grow them.
NOBODY chooses this plant for an apartment complex. I am amazed.