Re: so down over have a miscarriage

marika <[email protected]> wrote:
> marika <[email protected]> wrote:
>> marika <[email protected]> wrote:
>>> 
>>> I Remember when my relatives would visit and sit under the shade in breezy
>>> lawn chairs while my parents mowed and weeded and hacked?
>>> Physical work is nice, some help is nicer.
>>> 
>>> 
>>> 
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>> 
>> I feel guilty for wearing socks
>> 
>> Had i gone out my ordinary time,,,without putting them on, the hawk
>> wouldn’t have got to mynhen
>> 
> 
> I remember when the older hen who we called Terrorist was all alone for 4
> months, every day locked in the pen because Ma refused to let her out until
> the fence was built. She became fairly unpleasant during that time. Bored,
> lonely, brain damage...  I’m not sure which, but she became kind of weird
> and not fun to be around anymore.
> Then when we got the two baby hens, she became even more intolerable and
> pushy.
> 
> I wish I had thought to put dog silhouette decoys in the yard. They deter
> birds of prey. I see them on the way to work, in fields where farmers have
> lambs and chickens and duck,  I wish I had thought to get some. I feel
> really guilty for not thinking of it.
> 
> 
> 

So I was concerned the babies were getting big and need more space, so I
got another box and assembled an attached second room for their original
box, so they have twice as much space now, and these 2 weirdos won't step a
single foot into room #2. It took me like 2 hours to move the boxes into
the living room and clean and rearrange and attach everything and the
little losers won't even go in it! And I also think, it looks to me that my
sister isn't cleaning much when she goes home once per week. I spend more
time vacuuming all the spilled food and bedding from the floor
around/outside the box, then doing anything else. And I know for certain
that the box is too tall for the birds to be kicking bedding out
themselves, it must be a human making that mess.

I went to a  plant sale today to get some plants for Ma and I met Natalie
for the first time. She is one odd bird. She spent most of the time telling
me that Ma is raising her monarchs wrong, and the rest of the time asking
me how much longer I think Ma can stay in the house. I told her she can
stay there for as long as we keep either doing her care and home upkeep, or
paying someone else to help us....What an odd thing for her to ask

 how pretty their little feathers are getting. Brown one is almost twice
the size of black one now, by the way.