Fic: Always alone, never without you 3/?

--Boundary_(ID_/kIYVPzjgWZuSMPRwHGYPA)
Content-type: text/plain; charset=iso-8859-1
Content-transfer-encoding: 7BIT

Title: Always alone, never without you 3/?

Author: Malicia Nocturna

Rating: from G to NC-17, varies from chapter to chapter

Disclaimer: Characters from Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Angel The Series belong to Joss Whedon etc. the story is mine.

Feedback: yes please :]

Distribution: Sure, ask first

Pairings: B/A, B/S, Spike/Drusilla, Spike/Darla, X/A, W/O, Joyce/Giles possibly others. I have to see where this story is taking me ;) 

Timing: AU, Buffy is a college student, she is living at home with her mom and sister Dawn. Willow is her best friend, Angel is Buffy's long-term boyfriend. Everyone is human.

Summary: Angel and Buffy have been together for ages. Angel is working in a law firm called Wolfram and Hart, Buffy is a college student. At one night their friend Cordelia is having a party and Buffy meets an interesting guy there. 

 

 ~*~*~

Chapter 3

 

Buffy woke up early next morning. Angel was still asleep. The room was cold and Angel had snatched the whole blanket as usual. He had been angry at night but after few hours of sweet talk and consoling Buffy had finally made him believe that there had been nothing going on between her and Spike.

Just dancing. Totally innocent. 

And she had promised not to do it ever again.

Angel had believed her, kissed her gently and cuddled against her warm body. It had felt good as usual, but something was missing. Buffy's thoughts had been distracted. 

She couldn't shake off the memory of Spike's touch. 

He was the bad boy, Drusilla's boyfriend, Angel had even referred to him as "the reckless, dangerous guy you should try to avoid." But there was something appealing about him. Something he was hiding deep inside. 

 

Buffy stroke Angel's hair. He looked peaceful when he was sleeping. He had been stressed lately because of his new job in the law firm. He had studied law for a while and now he was learning more in Wolfram and Hart. The job was stressing and demanding. Buffy kissed him on the cheek and stood up from the bed. 

She took a quick shower, changed her clothes and crept downstairs. 


Her mother was in the kitchen with her new "boyfriend", Rupert Giles. Mr. Giles was a librarian in Buffy's college.

"Good morning," Joyce said with a cheerful tone in her voice.

"Morning," Rupert smiled at Buffy.

"Hi," Buffy said and grabbed an apple from a small basket.

"How was the party last night?" Joyce was curious.

"It was ok. Kinda boring."
"Is Angel still sleeping?" 
"Yes, he is tired after a long, hard week at work."

"Should I make some more coffee?" 

"Sure."



Buffy crept back to her room with a cup of coffee. 

"Wakey wakey, rise and shine," she whispered into Angel's ear and kissed him.

"Good morning my sweet princess," Angel said with a husky voice and yawned. 

"You are not angry anymore?"
"No, I am not angry. Come here and I'll show you how not angry I am."
Angel grabbed Buffy by her waist and tossed her on the bed next to him. Buffy screamed and laughed.

 

~*~*~

 

Angel was bowling with Doyle and Buffy was bored.

She decided to take a walk and maybe visit Willow. She took her cell phone with her in case Angel  would call.

She walked pass one of the many cemeteries in Sunnydale, heading to Willow's house. It was a quiet night, no cars or pedestrians anywhere. 

Suddenly her phone rang.

She didn't recognize the number that was flashing on the screen of her phone.

"Buffy Summers."
"Hi there Miss Moonlight," a soft voice whispered into her ear.

"Spike??"

"Yeah, it's me luv."

"Where did you get my number?"
"Cordelia was very helpful after few beers."
"Of course."
"I thought. What are you doing tonight? I am leaving Sunnydale for few weeks and I thought that maybe you would like to do something before I leave. Coffee or something?"
Buffy's pulse increased. Spike wanted to see her? 

"Where are you going?"
"To L.A. It's a work thing."
"What about Drusilla?"
"What about her? I am not gonna bring her with me, don't worry."
Buffy laughed. 
"That's not what I meant, but good, I don't want to go out with her."
"What about me? Want to meet me, luv? Where are you by the way?"
"I am just walking around."
"Give me the address of your location and I'll arrive there in a minute. Or two minutes. Maybe five." There was laughter in his voice.
Buffy couldn't help but laugh again. She gave the address.

"Ok, don't move pet. I'm on my way."
"I won't. See ya."
Buffy hang up the phone. Her hands were shaking. 

 

Spike saw her long before she noticed him. The waning moon was casting its pale light on her face when she was pacing nervously around a tree.

Spike smiled to himself. He could have stayed in the shadows all night just watching her. She was being nervous because of him. She was waiting. The thought of her waiting for him was almost arousing.

 

Buffy was indeed very nervous. She had just met the guy and now she was already waiting for him in a dark alley. She didn't know anything about him, she barely knew him at all but yet she couldn't forget him. 

 

"Gosh! You scared me!

Spike had appeared from behind her like a ghost. 

"Sorry luv, didn't mean to." 
Buffy slapped his arm playfully. 

"Damn you, sneaking on people like that."

Spike grinned and grabbed Buffy into his arms.
"I'll show you some sneaking girl."
It felt like the world stopped revolving for a moment. Buffy felt the strange desire flickering deep inside of her. Spike looked even more gorgeous than last night. His long lashes painted shadows on the pale skin of his perfect face and his eyes were full of endless mysteries and hidden feelings. 
At that moment Buffy knew she had to find out more, learn to read the cryptic messages in his ice blue eyes, open the Pandora's box. Buffy was sure that the destiny pointed its finger at them and smiled. There was no turning back. 

 

"Spike, don't."

Buffy freed herself from his arms and stepped away. 

Spike sighed and nodded. 
"Yeah, Angel. I know. Don't have to mention him."
"I don't want to hurt him. Ever."
Spike's eyes turned cold for a second. Then his features softened and he tried to smile.

"I understand. I just hoped we could be friends. I felt something last night, Buffy. Something special. I have never loved a woman or felt any kind of connection with anyone. To me they are just .entertainment. I use them and lose them, you know? But you. You are different. You are like a breath of fresh air in this sad town. You are a golden goddess, bathing in the moonlight. You are the forever shining light amongst the dark souls that dwell in this place. I have never met anyone like you before."

"But.. I. but.," Buffy was speechless. That was the most beautiful thing she had ever heard.

And she knew exactly what he was talking about. The connection. She had felt it too. 

"What about Drusilla?" Buffy's voice was scarcely audible. She kept her eyes on the ground.

"I like her a lot, I can't deny that. She understands me. We have been together for a long time even though you might not know that. We are good friends, the sex is great."

"Ok, I really don't want to hear about that." Buffy turned to leave but Spike grabbed her shoulder.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to offend you. It's just. I feel this deep darkness inside of me, like a hidden demon. It's an essential part of me, it makes me who I really am. I can hide it from other people but I can't hide it from you. The moment I saw you I knew that my demon is calling for you. It's screaming your name Buffy. There is something about you that makes my hidden depths restless. It's amazing. I can almost feel you inside of my head. I feel connected to you, and I know that you feel it too. I can't let that slip away from my hands, I can't let you walk away from me like that. I don't know why I need you, but I just do. Stay in my life." Spike was almost pleading.

He removed his hand from her shoulder. Buffy was shaking. The whole situation was absurd. But somehow she didn't want him to go either. She had no idea what had happened last night between them, what kind of a connection they shared but she couldn't let it go. 

"We can be friends Spike, I can promise you that." Her voice was a mere whisper.

"It's enough Buffy. As long as I can keep in touch with you," Spike's voice was like a gentle caress. Buffy couldn't resist it. She placed her arm around him and lifter her another hand to touch his face. Her fingers followed the traces of his cheekbones and drew invisible circles around his delicate lips. She moved her hand to his neck and then moved it gently downwards to join her another hand on his waist.

"Spike, this is crazy. I don't know what's happening to us or why. But you are right about one thing. I can feel the connection. Something happened last night Spike, but it can never happen again. You know the reason why."
Spike nodded shortly. Damned Angel. He had never had any problems with these kind of things before. If he had wanted the girl, he had taken the girl. With a boyfriend, married, engaged, it had meant nothing. But Buffy was different, he could never hurt her by trying to mess her relationship with Angel. As long as he just could be near her...

"I have to go now. My mom is probably waiting for me. But let me know when you are back in town, ok?" 

Buffy was still holding him. 

"I will. I'll come back within two weeks." 

Spike didn't want her to let go.

"I really should go now." 

 

Buffy forced her arms to move. 

It felt almost painful to not touch him anymore. Buffy turned and started to run. She felt almost dizzy. 

 

And once again Spike stood there, watching her disappearing in to the night.

--Boundary_(ID_/kIYVPzjgWZuSMPRwHGYPA)
Content-Type: text/html; charset=ISO-8859-1
Content-Transfer-Encoding: quoted-printable

<!DOCTYPE HTML PUBLIC "-//W3C//DTD HTML 4.0 Transitional//EN">
<HTML><HEAD>
<META http-equiv=3DContent-Type content=3D"text/html; charset=3Diso-8859-1"=
>
<META content=3D"MSHTML 6.00.2734.1600" name=3DGENERATOR>
<STYLE></STYLE>
</HEAD>
<BODY bgColor=3D#ffffff>


<DIV>
<DIV>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Title: Always alone, never without you=20
3/?<?xml:namespace prefix =3D o ns =3D "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:of=
fice"=20
/><o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Author: Malicia Nocturna<o:p></o:p></SPA=
N></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Rating: from G to NC-17, varies from cha=
pter to=20
chapter<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Disclaimer: Characters from Buffy the Va=
mpire=20
Slayer and Angel The Series belong to Joss Whedon etc=85 the story is=20
mine.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Feedback: yes please :]<o:p></o:p></SPAN=
></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Distribution: Sure, ask=20
first<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Pairings: B/A, B/S, Spike/Drusilla,=20
Spike/Darla, X/A, W/O, Joyce/Giles possibly others=85 I have to see where t=
his=20
story is taking me ;) <o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Timing: AU, Buffy is a college student, =
she is=20
living at home with her mom and sister Dawn. </SPAN><?xml:namespace prefix =
=3D st1=20
ns =3D "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:smarttags" /><st1:City><st1:place>=
<SPAN=20
lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Willow</SPAN></st1:place></st1:City><SPA=
N=20
lang=3DEN-GB style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB"> is her best friend, Angel =
is=20
Buffy=92s long-term boyfriend. Everyone is human.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Summary: Angel and Buffy have been toget=
her for=20
ages. Angel is working in a law firm called Wolfram and Hart, Buffy is a co=
llege=20
student. At one night their friend Cordelia is having a party and Buffy mee=
ts an=20
interesting guy there. <o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB"><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB"><SPAN=20
style=3D"mso-spacerun: yes">&nbsp;</SPAN>~*~*~<BR><BR>Chapter=20
3<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB"><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Buffy woke up early next morning. Angel =
was=20
still asleep.&nbsp;The room&nbsp;was cold and Angel had snatched the whole=
=20
blanket as usual. He had been angry at night but after few hours of sweet t=
alk=20
and consoling Buffy had finally made him believe that there had been nothin=
g=20
going on between her and Spike.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Just dancing. Totally innocent.=20
<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">And she had promised not to do it ever=20
again.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Angel had believed her, kissed her gentl=
y and=20
cuddled against her warm body. It had felt good as usual, but something was=
=20
missing. Buffy=92s thoughts had been distracted. <o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">She couldn=92t shake off the memory of S=
pike=92s=20
touch. <o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">He was the bad boy, Drusilla=92s boyfrie=
nd, Angel=20
had even referred to him as =93the reckless, dangerous guy you should try t=
o=20
avoid.=94 But there was something appealing about him. Something he was hid=
ing=20
deep inside. <o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB"><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Buffy stroke Angel=92s hair. He looked p=
eaceful=20
when he was sleeping. He had been stressed lately because of his new job in=
 the=20
law firm. He had studied law for a while and now he was learning more in Wo=
lfram=20
and Hart. The job was stressing and demanding. Buffy kissed him on the chee=
k and=20
stood up from the bed. <o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">She took a quick shower, changed her clo=
thes=20
and crept downstairs. <o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB"><FONT face=3DArial size=3D2></FONT><BR>H=
er mother=20
was in the kitchen with her new =93boyfriend=94, Rupert Giles. Mr. Giles wa=
s a=20
librarian in Buffy=92s college.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93Good morning,=94 Joyce said with a ch=
eerful tone=20
in her voice.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93Morning,=94 Rupert smiled at=20
Buffy.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93Hi,=94 Buffy said and grabbed an appl=
e from a=20
small basket.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93How was the party last night?=94 Joyc=
e was=20
curious.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93It was ok. Kinda boring.=94<BR>=94Is =
Angel still=20
sleeping?=94 <BR>=94Yes, he is tired after a long, hard week at=20
work.=94<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93Should I make some more coffee?=94=20
<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93Sure.=94<BR=20
style=3D"mso-special-character: line-break"><BR=20
style=3D"mso-special-character: line-break"><o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Buffy crept back to her room with a cup =
of=20
coffee. <o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93Wakey wakey, rise and shine,=94 she w=
hispered=20
into Angel=92s ear and kissed him.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93Good morning my sweet princess,=94 An=
gel said=20
with a husky voice and yawned. <o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93You are not angry anymore?=94<BR>=94N=
o, I am not=20
angry. Come here and I=92ll show you how not angry I am.=94<BR>Angel grabbe=
d Buffy=20
by her waist and tossed her on the bed next to him. Buffy screamed and=20
laughed.</SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB"><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">~*~*~<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB"><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Angel was bowling with Doyle and Buffy w=
as=20
bored.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">She decided to take a walk and maybe vis=
it=20
</SPAN><st1:City><st1:place><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Willow</SPAN></st1:place></st1:City><SPA=
N=20
lang=3DEN-GB style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">. She took her cell phone w=
ith her=20
in case Angel <SPAN style=3D"mso-spacerun: yes">&nbsp;</SPAN>would=20
call.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">She walked pass one of the many cemeteri=
es in=20
Sunnydale, heading to Willow=92s house. It was a quiet night, no cars or=20
pedestrians anywhere. <o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Suddenly her phone rang.<o:p></o:p></SPA=
N></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">She didn=92t recognize the number that w=
as=20
flashing on the screen of her phone.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93Buffy Summers.=94<BR>=94Hi there Miss=
 Moonlight,=94=20
a soft voice whispered into her ear.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93Spike??=94<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93Yeah, it=92s me luv.=94<o:p></o:p></S=
PAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93Where did you get my number?=94<BR>=
=94Cordelia was=20
very helpful after few beers.=94<BR>=94Of course=85=94<BR>=94I thought=85 W=
hat are you doing=20
tonight? I am leaving Sunnydale for few weeks and I thought that maybe you =
would=20
like to do something before I leave. Coffee or something?=94<BR>Buffy=92s p=
ulse=20
increased. Spike wanted to see her? <o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=94Where are you going?=94<BR>=94To=20
</SPAN><st1:City><st1:place><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">L.A.</SPAN></st1:place></st1:City><SPAN=
=20
lang=3DEN-GB style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB"> It=92s a work thing.=94<BR=
>=94What about=20
Drusilla?=94<BR>=94What about her? I am not gonna bring her with me, don=92=
t=20
worry.=94<BR>Buffy laughed. <BR>=94That=92s not what I meant, but good, I d=
on=92t want=20
to go out with her.=94<BR>=94What about me? Want to meet me, luv? Where are=
 you by=20
the way?=94<BR>=94I am just walking around.=94<BR>=94Give me the address of=
 your=20
location and I=92ll arrive there in a minute. Or two minutes. Maybe five.=
=94 There=20
was laughter in his voice.<BR>Buffy couldn=92t help but laugh again. She ga=
ve the=20
address.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93Ok, don=92t move pet. I=92m on my way=
.=94<BR>=94I=20
won=92t. See ya.=94<BR>Buffy hang up the phone. Her hands were shaking.=20
<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB"><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Spike saw her long before she noticed hi=
m. The=20
waning moon was casting its pale light on her face when she was pacing nerv=
ously=20
around a tree.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Spike smiled to himself. He could have s=
tayed=20
in the shadows all night just watching her. She was being nervous because o=
f=20
him. She was waiting=85 The thought of her waiting for him was almost=20
arousing.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB"><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Buffy was indeed very nervous. She had j=
ust met=20
the guy and now she was already waiting for him in a dark alley. She didn=
=92t know=20
anything about him, she barely knew him at all but yet she couldn=92t forge=
t him.=20
<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB"><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93Gosh! You scared me!<o:p></o:p></SPAN=
></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Spike had appeared from behind her like =
a=20
ghost. <o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93Sorry luv, didn=92t mean to.=94 <BR>B=
uffy slapped=20
his arm playfully. <o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93Damn you, sneaking on people like=20
that.=94<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Spike grinned and grabbed Buffy into his=
=20
arms.<BR>=94I=92ll show you some sneaking girl=85=94<BR>It felt like the wo=
rld stopped=20
revolving for a moment. Buffy felt the strange desire flickering deep insid=
e of=20
her. Spike looked even more gorgeous than last night. His long lashes paint=
ed=20
shadows on the pale skin of his perfect face and his eyes were full of endl=
ess=20
mysteries and hidden feelings. <BR>At that moment Buffy knew she had to fin=
d out=20
more, learn to read the cryptic messages in his ice blue eyes, open the=20
Pandora=92s box. Buffy was sure that the destiny pointed its finger at them=
 and=20
smiled. There was no turning back. <o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB"><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93Spike, don=92t=85=94<o:p></o:p></SPAN=
></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Buffy freed herself from his arms and st=
epped=20
away. <o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Spike sighed and nodded. <BR>=94Yeah, An=
gel. I=20
know. Don=92t have to mention him.=94<BR>=94I don=92t want to hurt him.=20
Ever.=94<BR>Spike=92s eyes turned cold for a second. Then his features soft=
ened and=20
he tried to smile.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93I understand. I just hoped we could b=
e=20
friends. I felt something last night, Buffy. Something special. I have neve=
r=20
loved a woman or felt any kind of connection with anyone. To me they are ju=
st=20
=85entertainment. I use them and lose them, you know? But you=85 You are di=
fferent.=20
You are like a breath of fresh air in this sad town. You are a golden godde=
ss,=20
bathing in the moonlight. You are the forever shining light amongst the dar=
k=20
souls that dwell in this place. I have never met anyone like you=20
before.=94<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93But=85. I=85 but=85,=94 Buffy was spe=
echless. That was=20
the most beautiful thing she had ever heard.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">And she knew exactly what he was talking=
 about.=20
The connection. She had felt it too. <o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93What about Drusilla?=94 Buffy=92s voi=
ce was=20
scarcely audible. She kept her eyes on the ground.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93I like her a lot, I can=92t deny that=
. She=20
understands me. We have been together for a long time even though you might=
 not=20
know that. We are good friends, the sex is great=85=94<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P=
>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93Ok, I really don=92t want to hear abo=
ut that.=94=20
Buffy turned to leave but Spike grabbed her shoulder.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93Sorry, I didn=92t mean to offend you.=
 It=92s just=85=20
I feel this deep darkness inside of me, like a hidden demon. It=92s an esse=
ntial=20
part of me, it makes me who I really am. I can hide it from other people bu=
t I=20
can=92t hide it from you. The moment I saw you I knew that my demon is call=
ing for=20
you. It=92s screaming your name Buffy. There is something about you that ma=
kes my=20
hidden depths restless. It=92s amazing. I can almost feel you inside of my =
head. I=20
feel connected to you, and I know that you feel it too. I can=92t let that =
slip=20
away from my hands, I can=92t let you walk away from me like that. I don=92=
t know=20
why I need you, but I just do. Stay in my life.=94 Spike was almost=20
pleading.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">He removed his hand from her shoulder. B=
uffy=20
was shaking. The whole situation was absurd. But somehow she didn=92t want =
him to=20
go either. She had no idea what had happened last night between them, what =
kind=20
of a connection they shared but she couldn=92t let it go. <o:p></o:p></SPAN=
></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93We can be friends Spike, I can promis=
e you=20
that.=94 Her voice was a mere whisper.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93It=92s enough Buffy. As long as I can=
 keep in=20
touch with you,=94 Spike=92s voice was like a gentle caress. Buffy couldn=
=92t resist=20
it. She placed her arm around him and lifter her another hand to touch his =
face.=20
Her fingers followed the traces of his cheekbones and drew invisible circle=
s=20
around his delicate lips. She moved her hand to his neck and then moved it=
=20
gently downwards to join her another hand on his waist.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></=
P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93Spike, this is crazy. I don=92t know =
what=92s=20
happening to us or why. But you are right about one thing.&nbsp;</SPAN><SPA=
N=20
lang=3DEN-GB style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">I can feel the connection. =
Something=20
happened last night Spike, but it can never happen again. You know the reas=
on=20
why.=94<BR>Spike nodded shortly. Damned Angel. He had never had any problem=
s with=20
these kind of things before. If he had wanted the girl, he had taken the gi=
rl.=20
With a boyfriend, married, engaged, it had meant nothing. But Buffy was=20
different, he could never hurt her by trying to mess her relationship with=
=20
Angel. As long as he just could be near her...</SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93I have to go now. My mom is probably =
waiting=20
for me. But let me know when you are back in town, ok?=94 <o:p></o:p></SPAN=
></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Buffy was still holding=20
him.&nbsp;<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93I will. I=92ll come back within two w=
eeks.=94=20
<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Spike didn=92t want her to let=20
go.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">=93I really should go now=85=94=20
<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB"><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">Buffy forced her arms to move.=20
<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB">It felt almost painful to not touch him=
=20
anymore. Buffy turned and started to run. She felt almost dizzy.=20
<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=3DMsoNormal style=3D"MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt"><SPAN lang=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB"><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></SPAN></P><SPAN lang=
=3DEN-GB=20
style=3D"FONT-SIZE: 12pt; FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman'; mso-ansi-language=
: EN-GB; mso-fareast-font-family: SimSun; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-=
bidi-language: AR-SA">And=20
once again Spike stood there, watching her disappearing in to the=20
night.</SPAN></DIV></DIV>
<br>



<br>
<tt>
To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to:<BR>
[email protected]<BR>
<BR>
</tt>
<br>

<br>
<tt>Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to the <a href=3D"http://docs.yaho=
o.com/info/terms/">Yahoo! Terms of Service</a>.</tt>
</br>

</BODY></HTML>

--Boundary_(ID_/kIYVPzjgWZuSMPRwHGYPA)--