Re: The O2 isn't helping and I'm suicidal

In article <[email protected]>,
 JohnL <[email protected]> wrote:

> "D.F. Manno" <[email protected]> wrote in
> 
> > The depression is just getting worse. I go back and forth between
> > wanting to get an Uzi and start shooting random passersby, and wanting
> > to get a fifth of Jim Beam and take all the pills in my house.
> 
> Well I'm on the other side of the same problem....
> It's easy for me to say, but try to hang in there. 
> 
> Maybe try to find a support group near you that can send someone to visit 
> with you?

I've been assigned a visiting psych nurse to fill the gap until I'm admitted to 
the program. But we've been having logistical problems. I can't seem to make him 
understand why it's unacceptable for him to come to my home at the same time my 
aide is here. One, it's a confidentality issue, and two, if he comes while my 
aide is giving me my bath, for example, who's supposed to sit and twiddle their 
thumbs while the other is doing his/her job?

Until the last two weeks or so, he also didn't understand why he couldn't call 
me in the morning to make an appointment to see me the _same_ day.

The visit before last he said he'd be here at 10am. He showed up at 11:20am and 
stayed for all of 10 minutes, said he was sick. The last time the appintment was 
for 9:30am. I was awake. No one rang the bell or knocked on the door, and then I 
get a call accusing me of dodging him and saying he was here and did ring the 
bell and knock on the door. So now they think I'm lying.

I'd like to ditch the guy, but the agency trying to get me into the hospital 
said that I have to work with this guy in the interim. The "or else" was 
unspoken.

> If you go thru an inpatient program, wouldn't they have to find you a place  
> to live before releasing you? Maybe you would end up in a better 
> neighborhood.

They said they would, but I was on the priority waiting list for housing for 
over a year when I got this apartment. If it takes another year after discharge, 
where do I stay in the meantime?
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D.F. Manno | [email protected]
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